Promise to Myself

 It's not that I need to be saved, I did that shit a long time ago. I'm just so tired of these boys playing games like I'm a fucking toy! Seems like these walls I have built up will continue to protect my heart until someday, one day, maybe, someone comes along and is patient and kind enough; who knows how to love and shows me that everyone before was just a fucking fool for passing up a woman like me! I may not be perfect and I never claimed to be, but I'm pretty fucking amazing! Always have been, I just forgot who I was for awhile.

So until then, I'm gonna love myself hard and take care of me and my girls because that, my friends, is what matters...I am what matters and I have always been enough!💜

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